To my adorable ass girlfriend :*
Dyani Angel Cortez <3
You said that I couldn’t write you a 6 page letter, well you were right… This is the type of this I like to type (: Sorry if it’s too much to read in one day. It was quite hard to write. Well it will be. So I’m going to start now:
I could never explain to you, that my love was serious. But somehow you could always see it. You felt it, like how i knew that you loved me. I’d spend my days, nights, and my life with you. Forever and always. All I’d need is your company and presence. I don’t know what’s going to happen when you leave me. I might be heartbroken for eternity, but at least I got to call you mine for just a while. For now, that’s enough for me. Dyani, I want to try and attempt to stay with you for the rest of my life. Even if I have to suffer in a pit of fire in hell for being a fucking lesbian. You are worth ever burn & flame that touches my body. I’m never going to forget you, even if we happen to part for years. I’ll find you and make you fall in love with me all over again. Somehow, someway, anywhere, even if we’re 8765678 years old and end up in an old folks home together… I’ll remember you and all the memories we’ve shared together. But let me think positive for a moment; let’s think about some good thoughts. You have all my love, you have my heart. You take my breathe away every day. Always in a different way. The things you say are filled with so much joy and love. I’d pick you over anything, no one comes above. I’d give you the world if I could, and one day I think I should. Much of me is you, you’re my other half. I’m not whole without you & your adorable laugh! I see my future in you, with you. I’ll be better in time; I’ll grow just like our love will. I’ve been waiting since 2009 for you, and now I’ve finally got you. I’m not about to let you go anytime soon. Did you know you’re always on my mind; I always lose myself in time. Just thinking of your face. God only knows why I took so long to let myself love you. I’ve let all my doubts go, but I’m still scared. Somehow I always feel like you’d leave me. But I’m going to let myself go. Because you’re worth the potential heart ache, you’re worth the tears, you’re worth my time. So I’m going to forgive the past, and let everything go. New day, time to let go of yesterday. I’ve never had the feelings I have with you, with anyone else. And I promise you that I’m worth , and I’ll take care of your heart and put it where mine is and give you mine so you don’t die. But I know it isn’t easy giving up your heart, so I dare you to let me be you’re one and only. I want to spend a life time in your arms. All I need is you to give me a chance. I’ll love you till the end of time if you’d let me. Because whenever I’m with you, I feel happy. Like I’m loved, like nothing else matters but us. When I’m old, are love will still feel young. I don’t want to be one of those old couples doing nothing. I wan’t to cook with you, dance with you, walk in the park with you, sleep with you, and eventually die with you. Its 5:20 in the morning and all I can think about is you. I know we fight a lot, but no matter what happens or what we say… I will always love you. If you ever find the need to leave me, just tell me. I’ll give you your space, as long as in the future you come back to me. And if I should die, just know you’re my last thought and your name would be my last words. On the day of December 21, 2012; the world is supposedly supposed to go through chaos, I’d like to spend it with you if you don’t mind. Because you’re my first and also my Last love, even though I’m not yours, I say you saved the best for last. I think I’m the one for you, not just someone to fill the space. Just the one to fix the cracks in your heart. But I’ve been thinking and I’ve made up my mind. There are no doubts in my head. I know for a fact that I am, in love with you. And I’m scared shitless to tell you the truth. But I’ll follow this path, even if it leads nowhere. The road to me looks long and beautiful. Ahhh, I’m so crazy for you I think I’m whipped. “Will You Be My Girlfriend? My Everything? My Love? My Wife? My Forever? Help My Heart Beat, Because It’s Frozen without you.” Words from you and I’m going to answer them now. First question: “Whenever you are ready to ask me to be your girlfriend again, I’ll be ready, and you’ll receive a yes.” Second question: “You are already mine” Third question: “You’re already mine” Fourth question: “I’d love to be you’re forever, because you’re already mine.” So I’m up to three pages now. I wish I could be with you now, just a hug, a kiss would last me a life time. Camel talk ;D {Sorry that’s an insider hehe} Let me think about what to write, type next… You know the first time I talked to you on the phone, I feel for you. I guess you have that effect on people. It’s a good thing, bad for me since the whole world is in love with you. Even if they don’t want to admit it. Hey, baee I care for you, and if you need anything I’m always going to be here for you. No matter what it is, I’ll try my best to come to you as fast as I can. I’m going to be korny for a while :3 If you needed me I’d run to you in thunder & lightning. And if I just so happened to get shocked it would only gave me more energy and drive to see you more. If I have to walk a thousand miles through the ghetto and get jumped I’ll still be limping to you. Hopefully you’ll take me to a doctor when I get to you. I know that it’s not easy to love me; never said it was going to be. But I promise my love will make you happy; it’ll make you dreams come true just wait and see. I want to give you my heart. That way we never part. And in return I’ll scream out your name every night. And when fight and on the verge of giving up, please don’t. Hold on, hold on to me and never let go. My heart can’t beat without you. I love you more than the sound of the rain hitting my window. Wit_out You _y Lif_ Is Inco_pl_t_. I think I should give you a love potion so you stay with me forever and ever! All my worries of you leaving would disappear. I hate that I only have love songs in my head; you make my mind a bombox of loveeeee. Back to the seriousness of it all. I realized i was in love with you a week ago, I’m sorry I took so long. But I can tell you everything I LOVE about you. I love the way you look, you’re simply gorgeous. You’re dark curly hair, beautiful eyes, adorable nose, & “compact lips” lmaoo xD I like when I kiss you it sounds like someone’s opening a sprite bottle. I LOVE your legs when you we’re those boxer brief things, there so fucking beautiful I can’t take my eyes of you. How your jeans fit so perfectly to you perfect frame. Like whenever you try to look like a girl and wear skinnies. The pained, angst look that was almost always on your face, when you try to hide your feelings. You’re small, almost non-existent chest, as well as you cute little Bottom. The way you don’t want me to protect you, even though I do anyways. How you still love me even though I have a love of sci-fi and fantasy movies & love of show tunes, indie music, and just plain odd things. How you wear men’s deodorant. You are such an interesting creature; I wish I were allowed into your world. I know I’m awkward around you at times, but that’s just because I’m speechless at times to find myself so in love with you. Now you’re the only thing I can think about, and it’s sickening how much I do. From the moment I wake up to the moment I lay my head down to go to sleep at night. You’re the only thought in my noggin. I was thinking about what would happen if we split and I saw you walking on the street going somewhere and what would happen if you noticed me. For me time would slow down just so the moment could last a little longer, just so I can fall in love with you all over again. I would not know how to react if we spoke, I have thought so many times on how I would act and what I would say, if you did not see me I would stay away but if I was caught off guard with you I would most likely be terrified. But I’d pray every day that each day we’d fall in love with each other even more. I know I have my problems, and still those things torment me but I never give you the chance to really get to know me, you see I was afraid I still am, but if you give me some time I will try
to explain my behaviors to you. You were like no one else, I might be just idealizing your good parts but I don’t care, that is what I look for in life… that spark and that intense emotion that cannot be explained. That’s how you make me feel when I’m with you. You once gave me a hug, I’ve never
really cared too much about hugs before… but it was just like this unbelievable
force of little fluttering butterflies that went through me. Every time I see you, those feelings still seems to occur. Your body, your smile, the way you act, your imperfections, your laughter and just the way you are is something I still think of… I can’t wait till we sleep together every night, because quite frankly sleeping alone is extremely lonely. I want to wake up to your face every morning, and take showers with you in the afternoon, and help you cook dinner at night. Except on Fridays & Saturdays because I’d take you out to eat somewhere. Anyhow, I’m in love with your complexity and just the way you present yourself. Its 12:15 and I’m watching the L word. And for some reason, all in thinking about is you. I see the couples, and I imagine use going through what they are… I actually started to cry because Beth told Tina that she loved her and Tina like bitched her out & left… I’m scared that all this might happen… But I’m so happy that now we are going out, I can finally call you mine <3 I really do think that I’m in love with you. Incredibly, insanely, unbelievably, without a doubt fallen for you. I can’t control these stupid feelings, but I like them going crazy. So yes , today in the 25th and you are laying beside me watching that 70’s show. And might i say you look quite wonderful. As for are fights.. i hate themm. i really do. But i doubt there going to go away. And cutting.. Please stop baee, im sorry im not so concerned but ive never done it before and it really scares me. Well, yeaaa. i hope you know i love you , and im sorry it took me so long to send this to you lol <3
